Laureen thought that the half-hour delay which had reached could be justified by traffic despite not absolutely true.
Before going to the bar where drinks offered detoxifying and organic snacks had run home to re-washed my hair, despite if they had already cleaned the loft, to stretch. It was made up and was stuck in a pantsuit. The image gave her the mirror reassured.
A pleasant smell of mint welcomed the entrance of the room. Was not one to diuretics or detoxifying herbal teas and concoctions, but thought that after a night spent would not have done that well.
He saw his guest's shoulder, partly hidden by a beige booths in rice paper. Joined him at the table and smiled, ricompensta coming from a bright look and deep. A blue so special in which anyone could get lost.
"Hello Laurie," greeted the man, rising and handing her a cheek to be kissed. Laureen chuckled dell'altezzosità feminine gesture. It was he who had expected to be kissed, not the other way.
"Hello Jared" greeted him giving him a light kiss on the cheek and hugging him. "Sorry for the delay but I had to wait for my sister bring the car after spending the night somewhere, "he lied blatantly without even asking why.
The man smiled and threw his head to the side to carry it out.
"What would you like?" Said settling the table
Laureen looked around puzzled, as if the menu was written on the walls of the room "Hum ... I think I drink orange herbal tea and cinnamon
Jared smiled, "Good Choice confirmed by calling the attention of the waiter who joined them immediately. He looked at the man once, then slid a second escape even a quick look on the woman.
Laureen Jared realized that he had recognized and was wondering who the woman was sitting with him.
"I feel good" notes Laureen watching his ex-patient has become a friend.
He shrugged "I do not find skinny?"
"I tell you you're okay skinny or blame you because you're too thin?"
Jared let out a laugh that warmed the hearts of Laureen. And not because he was fond of the boy caught in the coils of her beauty and fascination of his fame. Genuinely fond of him because he was digging in his soul he read a pure pain, not neurotic, not spoiled by the boredom of having everything and not knowing what to do. He kept those feelings locked in the safe where professional therapists imprison their emotions, then open it when its role as a doctor was exhausted and could only be a person like him.
"Continue psyche after years? You just can not do without it? "Asked the man showing off his perfect white smile.
The woman looked down, smiling to herself "I'm sorry"
"Then do not come to the concert tonight?"
The woman smiled and threw her face in her hands, "Sorry Jared but really know how they are made. I prefer to talk to you calmly in front of a herbal tea. But this does not mean that it has received your cd and I do not be heard more than once quite appreciating "granted with fresh eyes.
Jared nodded, "And what song you like best?"
Lauren looked up at the ceiling pretending to think of the song.
actually wondered whether he should or not to speak of "that" song in particular and all the pain that she herself had felt on their skin to the text. Maybe Jared did not want to talk about it. Groped decided to anyway.
"Alibi" he said with the air as he could feign indifference
The man smiled and looked down it became liquid. Laureen felt an infinite tenderness and an overwhelming desire to embrace that struggled to hold back.
From the first time he set foot in his studio, he knew that behind quell'arroganza, boldness and clear irritating an injured person was hiding, a child in the adult body. A body that nature had wanted to give flawless, but that the injured child was trying to humiliate in any way. Not the most nourishing, subjecting it to physical mortifications, for ridiculous makeup and dyed hair to make it more like a clown. As believed. It had taken more time than he thought, much longer than he thought but eventually the child was revealed in all its horror.
"Honestly, did you expect?" Jared asked, raising his eyes at point blank range on his too perfect.
was Lauren's turn to look down and sigh. He shook his head slowly, "No, honestly I would never say."
was wrong. He made a big error of assessment. She was convinced that passed the terrible moment that Jared and Colin had faced together, the story would not end ever. He could end up if she had survived a similar disaster.
"I dried up all the love he had for me, Did I sucked in all that time," murmured the man with no tone of self-pity.
"No, Jared!" Crucial ruling the woman bringing the arm across the table and shaking his hand in a collision that Jared did not refuse "This is not true! Do not continue to take a shot that you did not. In addition I think we came to the conclusion that he had taken of her, and a lot 'to get to where you left off "
" So why I left? "Jared asked with a look so confused, incredulous and felt saddened that Laureen my heart swell in his chest. He never envied those who lived stories of love, because he never wanted to experience the feeling of emptiness and loss that leave when they finish.
The woman looked at her decided to tell him that what he was saying was the truth, "He left because he chose the most convenient way Jared, because the end is not as strong as you and I thought it was. He left you because, unfortunately, is basically a coward. "
man's eyes became a lightning flash of anger, but Lauren took it anyway.
The woman nodded aware "So defend him yet," he asked in a whisper.
Jared hastened to deny shaking his head "I hate"
"But when I said that is a coward I would have bitten her neck," she said. Jared shook his shoulders to do so.
"You can hate him but no one can afford to hate him like you do. Not even your brother right? "Churches going to uncover ancient pains and conflicts.
"My brother ... ..."
"Your brother Jared what?"
"No"
"Your brother he was right. Here is what is the focal point of the situation. He always had. Nor I'd understand. "
" I'd rather come to the concert "Jared joked with a slight smile, and slide your finger along the circumference of the hot glass of green tea.
"I do not doubt" granted the woman giving him a pat on the back of his hand.
spent a moment of hushed silence in which Laureen waited. Jared toyed with the black paper towel, then rubbed his face "I'm terrible Laurie" confessed in a whisper without looking.
"I know
Jared nodded swallowing Magone pushing throat
" But you're bad luck is the right way. Suffering and allow yourself to feel the pain. Venting the anger in the lyrics, nell'adrenalina on stage, in outbursts. You're not bad as you were years ago. Right, "asked to confirm this, almost as if to reassure herself.
Yes is true "and she reassured Jared let out a silent sigh of relief
" So if my brother was right I made it all up? I actually lived a "wonderful lie"? "Said asking the question that perhaps arose from when Colin, a year before he left to launch in the reassuring arms of the colleague who had first met on his journey. And making even a child immediately, just to be sure you can not retrace his steps lightly.
"No Jared you have not invented anything. And it is That's what hurts you so much. The awareness that the love between you was that it was true, deep and sincere. If it was a lie which he had consciously thought now suffer like this, "explained the woman as a friend to a psychiatrist.
was really what he thought. Nobody in the world would love to pretend that she had seen in Colin.
and anger that he explained to Jared, in some ways was his. She was throwing away an opportunity that few people the world is given in a lifetime. And they had to fear.
If he had in front of Colin Farrell would have got slapped until it bled.
"Well," continued the man trying to rationalize something that did not belong to reason and never would have belonged "on the set during those six months I lived a lie, and it is on this basis that is , all born after "
Laureen looked at him without replying, reflecting on what was really best for him. Then he became convinced that, as always believed and was certain, the best was always the truth.
"You need to convince you of this to be less bad," he asked of his welcoming gaze inscrutable. He shrugged his shoulders.
"If you need to think it was all a lie to suffer less Jared, well then think of it this way. You have my blessing as a psychiatrist and as a friend "
" The you said yourself that this was not reality, it was a special situation "opposed Jared confirmed that he was really the need of absolute negation. He preferred to think of believing a lie that he experienced true love and losing it in the name of a placid serenity of life, and perhaps worse, in the name of a career as a reenergized.
"The fact that it was not really mean it was a lie"
"You're too brainy"
Laureen laughed heartily, "I? Look Who's Talking "
Even Jared smiled looking at her without taking your eyes. He was proud, not afraid to show his pain, his weak side, destroyed, torn to pieces by Colin.
Laureen And I admire him for that and in the name of pride that Jared showed he decided that he would not let his defense mechanisms led him to consider ten years of his life as a delusion ever.
"It was not really because it was a magical moment, Jared" gave quietly with a soft smile on his face. "One of those moments so perfect that they can not take or return. Call it a "gift" that life offers some of us, but ephemeral. This does not mean it was not true. It was not because sooner or later the reality of everyday life would claim its own space, how it happened. But it was a lie. Let me explain? "
Jared gulped and reddened eyes," Yes you explain "
" And yes, "continued the woman," everything else is , based on the foundations of those six months you have lived outside world, a time when everything seemed possible, in which time itself had stopped deluding himself that he would never spent. But love has left and has resisted the attacks of disillusionment can set a time of our lives forever "
Jared nodded sad" But then time has done its work "
"No Jared, it was time to put in place a written sentence. E 'was Colin. Only him. Do not give an illusion to blame fate, stop justifying it. He did not have enough courage. Perhaps it is not a fault, I do not know. But surely it is the reality. "
Jared nodded again, looking down and swallowing heavy.
"Do yourself a favor Jared" continued the woman leaning on the table for Approach, as much as possible and send him the empathy he felt at that moment, "Do not turn into nightmares of great memories . I remember this is what they serve. To remember that there was a time when we experienced something special, though now no more, there has been. And no one can ever erase it. It 'the only way we can stop the time Jared. Memories are the postcards that we send our past and bring us back to a period in which we lived and we were perfectly happy with the thought to which we can come back whenever we want. This is the only eternity we can steal the hourglass continues to flow unabated. Do not give him this power Jared, Colin did not give the power to erase the memories. "
The man raised a glance moved on her. It was Lauren's turn to swallow emotion
"I can do a song with what you said?" Joked Lauren and Jared laughed release tension and breaks "I'll give copyrights do not be afraid "
The woman shook her head and raised his hands," No, no, for heaven's sake, we caught a complaint of plagiarism. In fact it is a speech that I read in a novel as a teenager and that struck me so much to do mine but not mine " confessed.
was Jared's turn to burst into a hearty laugh, "But! ... Damn!"
Laureen parried with the palms of his hands balled up the napkin that my friend gave her him.
The laughter faded into a bond of peace and calm. Maybe that's enough. But Lauren had never been the type to close the first dance that echoes the last note.
"If this is any consolation to you, know that one thing is certain. Between the two, who are worse off is he "
Jared gave her a doubtful look.
"I remember we talked about earlier are not the only one to have them. Them too. And if you are a kind of consolation, for he will regret for a lifetime "
The man nodded," I should console? "
" Yes. A little 'healthy sadism never hurt to anyone, but ... "notes that her quiet.
"I'll be there if one day back," Jared ruled hard.
"I know Jared" granted "The problem is that it will not return"
"I know
" And it's better this way "she concluded on her own skin feeling the sting of that just the truth exposed.
"If you go now" - Massimo di Cataldo
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